i'm falling faster than i ever could've fallen.

everything has happened.

except for one thing.

which is what i need.

i just need her to need me. that's all.

even after spending atleast half a day with her, even after telling her how i feel, i don't feel any better.

my friends are all pissed because i'm so called obsessed, but honestly, i really can't help it. in my world this isn't obsession, but i've been told obsession is a part of love. so maybe i should be proud of it.

we hardly know each other and she means everything and more to me.

i'd rather she be happy and leave me broken hearted.

to make my friends happy i've decided i'm going to create the illusion that i no longer care for her, even though i do. and i already have tried to give up on her.

it took me about 5 minutes to realize i couldn't.

i saw somewhere, that she wrote the other day, "I'm no one special, somebody that nobody could fall in love with" or something like that. i wish so much that i could just tell her how much i love her, and tell her it's okay. but i can't.

i'm not going to give up hope though.